All we have is now

Beloved David,
Thank you for reminding me today about the wondrous now! How blessed we are to have our now. Really, it's all we have. Let's make this now magical and amazing!

Your Beloved

Yoga

Beloved,
Let's do some power yoga together today! It is such a beautiful day for it! The mountains are covered with snow and a cold wind is blowing. Afterwards, let's share some tea. Days like today remind us to rest and just be together!

David

The cold wind

Beloved David,
I want to hold you close on the cold days like today. I am reminded today how much I love you. Sometimes, the only thing I want is to just lay here together and watch the wind blow the stripped trees. Our love awakens such poetry and song in my heart. I want to just burst out in song. I love you David!

Your Beloved

Being open

Beloved,
You have shown me the path to trust and vulnerability. I know that it is safe to show my inner sensitivity to you. This is something I have wanted my entire life. It is such a gift to love and be loved by a man like you.

David

Bouquet

Beloved David,
Thank you for the beautiful bouquet of flowers you gathered in our garden today. You truly know how to make me smile. I love what we share you and I. Thank you for your spontaneity.

Your Beloved

Secret of life

Beloved,
You and I are one. We are connected by our underlying divinity and oneness. That is why the peripheral matter of the physical is really small in the equation. We have discovered the secret to happiness. Really, that's what all men are after. Thank you my beloved for sharing the secret of the universe with me.

David

Walk

Beloved David,
Bring Odin and let's go for a walk through the Sequoia today. I think nothing is more beautiful than you and me in nature. I'm so glad that we share this love. Yet one more amazing thing about our love.

Your Beloved

Peace and Joy

Beloved,
Let us create a place of lasting peace and joy. The stars are waiting to impart the secrets of the universe to us. I would rather sleep beneath them then in the most luxurious palace on the most plush bed. Help me, let's co-create a lasting simplicity that will shine like a beacon to future generations.

David

Challenges

David,
I love you. Remember that on the difficult days like today!

Your beloved

Love forever

Beloved,
I cannot wait to see you again. You rekindle the love within me each time I see you. It will live forever.

David

God in all of us

David,
You are beautiful and powerful. Remember the God you are in all of life's situation. You help me each day to remember my own divinity.

Your Beloved

Seeing the power in everyone

Beloved,
I am reminded today that our love is meant to blossom outwards to include those around us. Our space of love will expand and brighten till it fill the vastness of space with its radiant energy. I love you forever.

David

Beneath the stars

David,
Come walk the Redwood grove with me. Let's sleep under the stars and purify our souls beneath the spinning planets and dancing comets. Let our love be born again in this time of repose and reflection.

Your Beloved

I am Man

Beloved,
You are Man. I am man. That is nothing to be taken lightly. In you God put all his myriad of energies and gifts. Most importantly of all the energy of love. I feel myself closer to God just by holding your hand. I love you!

David

Perfection

Beloved David,
Today, remember that you are a God to me. You are perfect.

Your Beloved

Imperfectly perfect

Beloved,
I am human. I still fall short of perfection from time to time. You have shown me that I no longer need to hide this from anyone. Thank you for the gift you give of such magnificent and total acceptance.

Your beloved,
David

You shine for me

David,
With you I can feel the energy of love growing every day. This oft stranger to humanity has decided to make a home with us. Love shouldn't be strange to us. I see now the perfect design of God in all of this. Love wants to make a home with all of us, but many times is not permitted to do so by those not understanding love. Thank you for showing me daily what it is to love. I can see that love will be our guest all the days of our lives.

Your Beloved

Transcending my baser nature

Beloved,
I have been told my whole life that man is fallen, that he is flawed. When I look at you I see that for the falsehood it is. Man is perfect. He may be duped into believing otherwise from time to time, but he is flawless. God has given so much to us. He has given us his love and our love. You remind me daily that I can transcend the "norm" and return to my pristine and flawless origins. I love you with every fiber of my being.

David

Grand Co-creation

Beloved David,
One moment of grand co-creation with you can fuel me for the rest of my life. Ours is a love that transcends the fleshy lusts. We have re-discovered our pristine origins. To know that such a man as you exists astounds and delights me. I praise God our father for how lucky I am to share this wondrous love with you.

Your Beloved

Under a million stars

Beloved,
Let's lay out under the stars for the next 3 days. Let's let the heavenly bodies cleanse us till we are pure and innocent again. Let's forget all the hurt in our pasts. Let's leave our pasts behind all together. Let us pray to every star and planet in the sky for a blank slate starting now. Our love deserves the space to grow in, and I would no longer compare it to what has come before.

David

Enigma

David,
To me you are more than a body. You are a holy place. The path that you have walked seems to me to be an enchanted one littered with thousands of flower petals. I hear music echoing through the forest in which you quietly sang a song to yourself. Always mysterious and utterly captivating, my God, I long to see what we may co-create together next.

Your Beloved

What keeps love alive?

Beloved,
I want to say today how much I appreciate that you love me beyond fleshy feelings. It is so freeing to walk with the depth of your love with me everywhere I go. Our space of love extends everywhere we are because of your grand co-creation. I love you!

David

Surprise!

David,
Meet me with Odin at the park. I have a surprise ;)

Your beloved.

Running free under the sun

Come with me beloved, and together we'll run free as feathers on the breeze under the perfect sun.

David

Both sides

Beloved David,
Look at the clouds today and see the forms and shapes I'm visualizing. Our domain is up there. I can see it so vividly. Look for a smiling face and 1000s of blooming flowers. Don't be saddened by this gray day. These clouds all have a silver lining.

Your Beloved

Trust

Beloved,
I'll keep it quick and simple today. I trust you. I give you the gift of my heart 100%. I love you.

David

Support

David my most beloved,
I want to tell you of my love for you and the power of that love. My love energizes me to support and trust you in ways I never thought possible. I can't tell you how much I love you. You are a treasure beyond treasures. I would follow you where you go, and I would help to ease your journey down the road of life. I would give anything knowing it will delight you for I know you would do the same in return.

Your Beloved

Dragonflies and swans

Beloved,
I was thinking today of the swans and dragonflies that heralded your coming to me. I thought again of that magical night spent under the stars to awake to thousands of dragon flies zipping around us in the morning mist. You have taken me down paths that led to the greatest vistas I've ever seen. You have called my heart to adventure and freedom. I just have to say beloved, how much I am grateful for you today.

David

Lay out under the stars

Let's lay out under the stars tonight David like we did on the day we met. I can't tell you how magnificent you look to me in the open under the heavens. You have a beauty and grace about you that is so unaffected. Even at your clumsiest moments, you seem a dancer to me. I offer you my heart as a resting place for you. I declare to you now that I am willing to support you through life's ups and downs. You know that you can trust me with your heart because I give mine now to you.

Your Beloved

I had a dream

I had a dream beloved long before we connected in the physical sense. I dreamt of a man confident and powerful. I saw that he knew who he was and was grounded strongly in that. He was a man that was both beautiful inside and out. I sensed a light radiating from him that touched all who crossed his path. A passion like his could never be cheapened or hidden. This man had a knack for adventure and spur of the moment risks. He was sure that life would always land him on his feet. I sensed an abundance of love, energy, and joy emanating from him. I knew when I saw him that he and I were destined to connect and love each other. We are now and will continue to build a space of love that many generations will inhabit.

David

To David with love

Look up at the Sun beloved David and feel it's rays warming you. My love is directed at you like the sun's rays. I love you!

Your beloved

to you whom I will never know...

Beloved,
Thank you today for being the wonderful light that you are! You truly are magnificent. Love is a daily reality with you. What more could I ask for than this? Seeing you work with me side by side in our amazing Space of Love is a blessing. Thank you my God.

David

Eternity

Beloved David,
Truly the stars are reflected and multiplied in your eyes. I see a powerful, strong man staring back from me. More than a man, a God truly. I love you with every fiber of my being. Our love will live forever in our space of love.

Your Beloved

I am present to the God/Goddess in every man

Beloved,
I see the God in your so clearly. I finally see the God in me as well. You have taught me more about divinity than any other book, guru, or preacher ever could hope to. I see the Universe in your eyes.

David

Let me in

David,
I'm glad you decided to finally let someone in and it was me! Thank God you learned to surrender to love. I feel so blessed that we met and connected and that you were willing to be vulnerable with me. Never close your heart to love ever again. Love is worth the risk of hurt one thousand times over.

Your beloved

Waiting

Beloved,
I would wait 1000 years for you. No more will I question myself about your existence or what I know on a deep soul level. I will wait with joyful expectation of your arrival.

David

Gratitude

David,
I just wanted to take the time to tell you how grateful I am that you and I walked the paths we did that led to our meeting. I'm grateful that I can the man that you have created yourself to be. I feel that we are up to speed with each other and it is a magnificent thing.

Your Beloved

I see your face so vividly before me..

Beloved,
I saw you long before I ever met you. I know that we would meet. I had 100% faith in the love to be, and now I have 100% faith that our love can last forever. We are that powerful! My God, with you I am building a space of love that will last forever. Our children's children's children will run through a field of infinite flowers.

David

My vision

David,
I saw you long before you ever came to me in the flesh. I had a deep knowing and trust that we would cross paths and connect. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was worth that wait. I may have wavered in my commitment from time to time, but the meeting made it all worth it. Had I known then how magnificent our love would be, I would have been content to wait 100 years or lifetimes for it.

Your beloved.

The man you merit..

Beloved,
You inspire me daily to be the man capable of co-creating eternity with you. We will build a space of love that will last an eternity. We will live again and again forever!

David

Inspiration

David,
You are my inspiration. I find myself more in love with you as each day passes. Our space of love will be eternal!

Your beloved.

My temple for you my beloved

My entire body, soul, and being is a temple to our love. I realize now that I can no longer abuse this temple any longer with vile foods and poisons. I feel my mind is 1000s of times clearer and lighter now that I am finally honoring this incredible dwelling co-created by God and I. Beloved, I declare this temple holy again and a place fit for you to dwell. My entire being is a monument to our love.

David

Co-creation

Beloved David,
I will always hold you in my heart. Together we are co-creating an amazing space of love.

Your beloved.

Comfort you

Beloved David,
Let my arms always be a space of love that you can run to. Never let anything stop you from confiding in me. I will always be there as a support and stand for you.

Your Beloved.

Beloved...

You have taught me to stay, and that love can last forever. Because of our co-creation, the space of love I've longed for and hungered for is a reality. I will be grateful every day until I pass through the doorway to a new state of being for this life we've built together. So many doubted, but we persevered and triumphed. Now, we're no longer the only ones. Together with those of like minds, we're creating a new Earth day by day, flower by flower, corner of Eden by corner of Eden. Man will be restored to his pristine origins. We are redeemed from the fall my beloved.

David

David...

I eagerly await the magnificent co-creation that will unfold between us. There is nothing more joyful or exhilarating than this!

Your beloved.

Beloved, Our space of love is here now...

Words are only words, but words in the right combination have the power to create. They have the power to destroy, and the power to radically alter human consciousness. I now choose this media to call a vision into being. I will craft our vision with my words to make it vivid and real. I will paint pictures so life like with my words that they will seem to be alive and moving.
I see before me three acres of verdant land in a quiet valley on the Oregon Coast. Half of the land is covered with an ancient forest. Our children’s children’s children’s children dwell content on the domain we called into being. I see an ancient oak tree at the center of the plot of land. It’s branches shade the wood home we built with our own hands. All around are fruit trees weighed down with an abundant harvest. Like the swollen breasts of Demeter in the fall, they give an abundance of healthy, fresh, invigorating food to our great-great grandchildren.
The air is sweet with a thousand and one pleasing aromas and healing ethers. The flowers we planted and loved with our touch blossom still for our descendants. The air practically hums with the sound of busy bees working tirelessly to make their sweet honey. Our family is planning a feast that will include the surrounding domains. I see them eagerly harvesting perfect vegetables and grains to prepare this bountiful feast.
Their eyes are alive with life, passion, and creativity. The cares and woes of our day and age seem a distant memory to them. They cannot remember the concept of scarcity or lack. Money is a word that simply isn’t in their vocabulary. They have no interest in the concept of heaven or eden because it isn’t a concept to them. It’s something they viscerally feel. Beloved children sit beneath the oak we grew from an acorn and the pines we planted in pots a lifetime ago and tell stories of us. They talk of me and you, my beloved, how we together founded a space of love to last an eternity.
I see the berry bushes that encircle the domain, a living breathing fence sagging under the weight of a million ripe berries. I see blackberries, raspberries, huckleberries, blueberries, gooseberries, boysenberries, and many more. I see a garden of fragrant roses beside a living gazebo of trees. I see a pond we dug to bathe in. I see our descendants sitting underneath the willow we planted by the pond and reminiscing about when it was but a seedling.
I see our family studying the garden of herbs we planted to heal, nourish, and enliven them. I see the wisdom we gathered from nature multiplied exponentially each generation. I see all are happy and overflowing with love. I see that our family can discern the secrets of the universe in the breath of each wind and the scent of each flower. I see them adding upon our domain and making it an even more perfect paradise.
I see beautiful children born each generation. I see them more happy and more enlightened each passing generation. I see them praise our names and revere our memories. I see my soul dancing in and out of the family in new generations. I see my memory hanging over the space I created. I see you too beloved coming back time and time again to participate in ever grander co-creation. I see a field of infinite flowers blowing in pristine air. I see a well filled with living, pure water. I see everyone thriving in the space of love we created.
I see music, poems, songs, and artwork filling the space of love and overflowing into the outside world. I see a family of Da Vinci’s and Shakespeares. I see each child learning organically and without boundaries. I see each member of the family knowing intimately that they are a great and wise creator. I see all co-creating with each other, the domain, and God. I see a memorial more beautiful than any lavish tomb. I see us living in Eden forever.

Vows

David,
With you my God, I will build a space of love and it will last for an eternity.

Vows

With you my beloved, I could build a space of love that would last an eternity.

Happy travels!

Beloved David,
Safe travels to Seattle today. I love you. Return safe to me.

Your lover

Warmth

Beloved,
Today, I wish only to express my love. Know today that you are loved. Let my love warm you and give your heart joy!

David

Resonance and Affinity...

David,
When I first laid eyes on you, I was captivated both mind and soul. I felt the answering call of your heart strings tugging at mine. At once when we walked into the room together, the faint tantalizing melody became a grand symphony. I sensed a fire and depth behind your light brown eyes. I knew somehow before we met even. I could feel the crescendo of building tones arpeggiating over one another like waterfalls of liquid gold. If I stared, I couldn't help it. The beauty I perceived radiating from the inside out in your being left me speechless and unable to look away. At last, I thought to myself, the one I have called into my life has shown himself.

Your beloved.

Show me

Beloved,
Sometimes the fewest words speak the loudest. I love that you prefer showing me over telling me. I love that you live your life this way. It inspires me to give up discussing something to just be it!

David

Love is everywhere

Beloved David,
I wanted to say thank you for your love and how you always remind me of the larger sense of love that is there for me should I choose to embrace it. We are all connected by the divine spark of love that resides in each of us. Beloved, help me to remember this fact each moment. I will remind you of the love that is always flowing to us if we choose to allow it.

Your Beloved.

Songs..

Beloved,
I hear the music everywhere I walk today. I can finally hear the song that all creation is singing to me. You are a part of that beautiful song beloved! I hear it so clearly now. Thank you for being the beautiful melody that you are in my life!

David

You make me wanna sing

David,
When I think about you, my heart just longs to sing. I want to put into words and song the bliss I feel with you. You are truly a muse for me. I'm inspired by all that we share. Thank you!

Your Beloved

A garden

Beloved,
Last night I dreamed a vivid and lucid dream. I dreamed that you and I had our own little piece of land and that we tilled the ground together. As one, we planted fruit trees, flowers, bushes, herbs, and grains. As one my beloved, we cultivated a miniature Eden out of the way of modern technology. I dreamed of buzzing bees laden down with pure, wholesome pollen. I dreamed of a clear, cool pond where we would soak our feet on a warm summer's night. I dreamed of birds and insects singing a divine symphony to us as the seasons passed in joy and peace. I dreamed of a sword beaten into a plowshare with which our children's children tilled the ground. I dreamed of wisdom bequeathed on you and I through all the life around us. I found that God smiled at our own little piece of paradise. Then, I awoke. The dream still lives on deep in my soul. I realized now that we need not seek paradise or perfection. It is within us. When we create out of that knowledge, anything we touch will become a part of Eden.

David

Sometimes the fewest words say it best...

David,
Know that on this day you are loved! :)

Your beloved.

Beloved

You are Man. I don't use man in the literal singular sense. I use it rather in the collective and greater sense. You are human but beyond that. In you resides a spark of what is God. In me resides that spark as well. We are a reflection of the divine and it of us. I see the perfection in you and in I. We are a unique and precious design that came into this existence to create and bring light and beauty. We are here as bearers of light and grace. Let that always be the goal of my love with you!

David

Opening my heart in each moment

Beloved David,
Something you said recently really hit me hard. I realized that I too could be so conditional with my love. I even saw it in our dynamic from time to time. When you are behaving in a way that pleases me, it is easy to love you. I struggle when that is not the case. I too strove this day to say I love you and Thank you mentally to everyone that crossed my path. The transformation is profound. I realized that I too can open my heart more. Our love can be something that goes beyond just the two of us. Thank you for the beautiful light that you are. I challenge you my beloved to share the smile that delights me so with more and more everyday. It will be a ray of light in this sad modern world.

Your Beloved

A bigger love...

Today my love, I realized that I wanted to speak of my love for all that is. I was wandering the streets today and saw our love reflected in every eye staring back at me. I realized that our shared love is a piece of a much larger and beautiful thing. You have taught me to love fuller and deeper all of the universe around me. Thank you for such a magnificent gift!

David

Love is the purest form of energy

Beloved David,
The love I feel inside fuels me like a boiler a ship. I'm brave enough to range through the darkness of the uncharted seas of life. Your love makes me feel 10 times more alive than I have ever felt before. The love we share makes waking up in the morning a pleasure where before it was simply a struggle. I never knew love would cause these shifts in me. I didn't know each new day could seem such a gift. I thought life was happy and fulfilled already, but it turns out loving you has added to that a thousand fold.

Your Beloved

Everything points to love

Beloved,
Everything points to my love for you. When you feel the warm sun on your face, know that I am thinking of you. When you feel the cool rain and revel in its refreshing effect, know that I am thanking the cosmos for your love that is equally refreshing to me. Know that everything points to my love. The shade of tall pines, the chatter of animals in the forest, and even the brilliant night stars. I love you more than words can convey.

Your Beloved,
David

integrity

I have never met a man who is as true to his words as you are my beloved. The man you say you are and the man you are are a seamless whole. It is staggering to know that such as you exists. I had given up hope sometime ago that I would ever meet someone that felt the same as me in this regard. I know that you will tell me what's on your mind without reserve. I love that you put your integrity before my feelings. Even it hurts momentarily to know the truth, it is a blessing that alleviates further suffering. I like to think of it like pulling off the band-aid. Beloved, never stop being the real and wonderful you.

Your Beloved.

Honoring my imperfection

Thank you for letting my darkness and pain be there without the need to fix it beloved. Thank you for patiently awaiting my resurfacing from the muck.

David

Pain

Sometimes, I hurt beloved David. It's part of the human experience. Thank you for honoring my space and pain when I hurt.

Your beloved.

A thousand blazing stars and galaxies

Beloved,
You are more stellar than the stars. I cannot express in words how beautiful you are to me. I love looking up at the night sky with you my beloved. You kiss is like that soft scent of rain in the hot summer air. It promises wonder and abandon beyond measure. I would run naked through the rain of your kisses. The fallow times were worth the blossoming meadows. I know that the winter incubated my ability to love as I do now. I'm grateful for the pain and disappointment along the way because it shaped who I am today which shaped our love in ways I can't imagine. No, I won't try to understand the vastness of the stars or the complexity of my life. I'll sit beneath both in silent wonder and appreciation for the order and perfection beneath apparent chaos.

David

To me

There is nothing remarkable about either of us beloved David. We're just two people. We don't stand out from humanity, but what makes us remarkable is our shared awareness of our divinity. You constantly remind me of the divine living within me. I am so grateful for that. Even in my darkest moments, you accept me as divine. I didn't know such radical acceptance was possible from anyone. Let me always accept you as you are beloved David!

Your beloved.

The infinite field of flowers

When I am in your arms beloved, I feel like I am in an infinite field of flowers. I feel suspended in delight and rapture. It is something beyond reality. Something more real than this dream we live. Beloved. You were worth the tears, the wait, the impatience, the joy, the failures. Just to be here in this moment made all the painful growth and fleeting joy worth it!

David

Light and Shadow

Beloved David,
I am writing to articulate my feelings today as I awoke to you lying next to me. Lately, I love how you have shown me it's ok to be both light and shadow within our relationship. You are the first person that has let my dark be as wonderful as my light. We are all light and dark. It has been a beautiful thing to learn to let your dark be what it is. I can't convey how precious this lesson has been to me beloved. Life wouldn't be the rich tapestry of variety and beauty without the shadow in there as well. Let it never be said that I ran away from our collective dark.

Your beloved.

I love you is enough

I just love you beloved. Thank you for being here on days like today.

David

Looking into your eyes

Beloved David,
When I look into your eyes, I get a glimpse of something mysterious and infinite. It is something beyond words. I feel my pulse quicken and my blood rush as I get lost in those two bottomless pools of light and shadow. In those pools, I feel a connection to something bigger than myself. I know that God is in all things, but just staring into those eyes that truth seems more real to me. I feel inches away, a breath away from the source of all that is when I look into your eyes. I can't tell you how precious our love is to me. Beloved David, always revel in those eyes that entrance and delight me. May they never be clouded by tears.

Your Beloved.

To the giver of gifts..

Beloved,
The reasons I love you are irrelevant. Love is a truth that stands total and alone. Words are so inadequate at capturing what I feel, but I'll try simply because it is fun to try naming the unnameable. You are a gift beyond price to me, beloved. Every breath I share with you is priceless. I cannot begin to tell you how much I love you. Any words are a poor substitute for the love itself. I love you beyond measure with utter abandon. I love you enough to not need anything in return. Truly, you have taught me what it is to love unconditionally.

David

Keeping it real...

Beloved David,
Today I wanted to say thank you for the authenticity you allow me to bring to our love and the authenticity you bring in return. It is magical that I can be so myself no matter the circumstances with you. You have showed me it's possible to be with someone that can allow me to be me. I will always even when I'm maddened by it, let you be you. It goes with out saying that our love is based on authenticity. It makes me glad that I took the emotional journey of aligning with meeting you, my love. It was worth all the contrast and all of the clean up I did of my vibration. Our coming together is a blessing I could never have conceived. Thank you for just being you and letting me be me!

Your beloved

A beacon inside

Beloved,
My love burned hot and bright for you today like our summer Utah sun. The only thing burning hotter was my love for me. The gift that keeps on giving. My deep self love allows me to love you. Your deep self love allows you to love me. It's like having a personal star inside my heart that constantly radiates light and warmth even at the coldest and bleakest moments. That is the magic and miracle of you and I. We are so ordinary but so extraordinary in our own way. I would that everyone could have a taste of the star lying dormant in their heart. Perhaps then they would love as you and I.

David

You are loved...

Beloved David,
You truly are loved by me. Know that in this moment. I can make no guarantees about what tomorrow may hold, but now I can say with the full depths of my being and soul, that you are loved. Never forget that. Our love is something magical and exceptional not because we are ourselves exceptional, but because of the depth of communication between us. We choose in each moment to be in love. That is the magic! Beyond that we are each still our own people first. We can differ, be honest about the differing, and then go as we were. That is the secret. Differences can just be differences. They don't have to be right or wrong. There doesn't have to be a winner or a loser. Thank you for showing me that that is possible with another person!

Your lover.

Simplicity

You are right my beloved. Simplicity is beautiful! I think today I will follow suit. Thank you for your love. It is a gift I relish waking up to each day.

David

Communication

Beloved,
Again, I choose to keep things simple today. I just want you to know how much I appreciate you for all you are and aren't. Thank you for being willing to always be heard and hear me even when we don't see eye to eye. That makes this love all the more rare and precious to me. Thank you!

Your beloved.

A sigh in the trees

Beloved,
I sigh with pleasure at the sight of your face. My pleasure was already overpowering before you danced into my life, now it is an overflowing fountain of sweet, refreshing water. I am purified by the fire of our love. It reminds me to love myself in the difficult moments. Such an amazing gift! Beloved, remind me if I forget that I have all the beauty and love within to share with you. Help me remember when the shadows close in and forgetfulness leads me to destructive paths. I will always remind you as I am able. Your beloved,

David

Freedom

Love is not clinging, is not grasping. Till our love I didn't know that this could be real. Everyone before said they loved me, but it seemed I was there to fill a hole in their life. I love the freedom you afford me! Because you love you, I know that you are able to truly love me too beloved. That makes me so happy. When we come together, we come together. When we need space, space is given. It is truly a beautiful thing. Love is free to ebb and flow just like the tide. The cycle of nature is restored. It's a beautiful thing.

Your beloved.

Entanglement

Dear beloved,
Right before I met you I had an insight. I realized that my attachment to having romantic love in my life was keeping you out. I realized that I had to let being single be as wonderful as I thought being in a relationship would be. Suddenly resistance and conflict vanished. I learned that any situation could be beautiful and wonderful as long as I let it be so. This is what allowed me to love you and be loved with no entanglement or attachment. With my fear of myself and being alone gone, suddenly I was free to love with no expectation or reservation. Wow. Tears well up in my eyes as I think about it now. In this moment I am so grateful to that sunrise that not only sparked a transforming insight, but also lit my journey down my path to you.

David

Say it simply

Sometimes, simplicity is best. My beloved David, I love you and am thinking joyfully of the love you give.

Your Beloved.

The words we share...

There is one thing I am profoundly grateful for more than anything. It is the way that your love allows me to be exactly who I am in every moment. I never need to worry about saying the wrong word. Even if what I say is displeasing, I know it will still be heard. That is magical to me in so many ways! Know my beloved that you can say anything to me and I will hear it and let it be. I'm not promising I'll always be pleased with what you have to say, but I am promising to let it be.

Your beloved David

Solitude

David,
I write today out of solitude. I love that we can be together and say nothing at all but yet be so close. It is truly magic. Thank you for being willing to explore the emptiness with me. Thank you for allowing the moment to just be whatever it is. I thought for a long time that I may be the only one in the world who understood. You proved me so wrong on that point! Truly, that is a gift. Silence is golden indeed my love.

Your Beloved

Say it in a song...

Dear beloved,
I decided to say with a song what my words can't quite say....

1. Open Water - Thrice
2. I Miss You - Incubus
3. Good Enough - Evanescence
4. Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels) - The Arcade Fire
5. Death Cab For Cutie - Marching Bands of Manhattan
6. The Note from Which a Chord is Built - Emery
7. Goldfrapp - Black Cherry
8. H.I.M. - The Sacrament
9. Imogen Heap - Goodnight and Go
10. Kylie Minogue - I believe in you

David

The burning cold fires

My love for you is hot but cold. It seems to express it, I must resort to paradoxes. There is no other way that I know to express what I feel for you David. No are magnificent to me. My love is so warm and alive yet so cool and aloof. Your love is that to me. I feel supported yet left to be and grow. I feel separate yet connected. Paradox comes close to the mystery yet misses the mark. When I'm in your arms it is like I enfolded by angel wings while still floating alone through space. There is a sense of vastness and confinement all in one. I marvel at the wonder that is you love. I marvel and shout my joy to the hills and forests. David, I love you.

Your beloved.

The wind and wild breezes

A breeze tugs at my shirtsleeve. It leads me to adventure and excitement. Your love calls me and pulls on me like the breeze. It would lead me to wide open meadows I'm sure. I will always follow the pull of my heart and feel freed by the following. Life is too short to not let my heart do the thinking. I am blessed that you stumbled into my life and twice blessed that we chose to explore where that could lead. I look forward to sleep now in a way I never did before. I look forward to resting in your arms and holding you close. I know the time will come when I'll set you free to the breezes again. It is inevitable, but I will not deny my pleasure in holding you close. I feel in some ways that I have captured the breezes in my arms.

Your love,
David

Another song for you my beloved..

You are like an ocean to me. Vast, impenetrable. Fascinating. Beautiful. Terrible. So changeable, yet so familiar. So foreign.

Ten thousand men sleep down with Davy Jones;
with stolen treasure they tithe.
The open water chills me to my bones,
but it's the only place that I feel alive.

The ocean floor begins to disappear;
I sense that terrible depth.
The open water is my only fear,
but I'll sail as long as I still have breath in me.

I'm starting to believe the ocean's much like you,
cause it gives, and it takes away.

Between the devil and the deep blue sea,
I stare into the abyss.
The open water is an awful thing,
but I'm anxious till the anchor is aweigh.

I'm starting to believe the ocean's much like you,
cause it gives, and it takes away.
I'm starting to believe the ocean's much like you,
cause it gives, and it takes away.

I'm starting to believe the ocean's much like you,
cause it gives, and it takes away.

Sunrise

I sit here watching the sun being born again and I think of you my love. I think how I have magically woken each day to see our love reborn. Maybe our love isn't like the sun since it can't shine for the next Billion years but I still find it magnificent that it shines for me so each day. Lover, I love to bask in the warmth of your smile, the heat of your touch. Take me back into your arms again and let the sun shine on us. As I trust the sun not knowing for sure it will rise again, so I'll trust you and your love. I have no control, but I don't need control. We never have control anyways. Thank you for being the magnificent light in my life that you are my love.

Your beloved David

The first day..

Beloved David,
I had to share this with you today because it's how you make me feel when I am with you...

Depuis le jour
où je me suis donnée,
toute fleurie semble ma destinée.
Je crois rêver sous
un ciel de féerie,
l'âme encore grisée
de ton premier baiser!
Quelle belle vie!
Mon rêve n'était pas un rêve!
Ah! je suis heureuse!
L'amour étend sur moi ses ailes!
Au jardin de mon coeur
chante une joie nouvelle!
Tout vibre,
tout se réjouit de mon triomphe!

Autour de moi tout est sourire,
lumiére et joie!
Et je tremble délicieusement
Au souvenir charmant
Du premier jour D'amour!
Quelle belle vie!
Ah! je suis heureuse! trop heureuse...
Et je tremble délicieusement
Au souvenir charmant
Du premier jour D'amour!

Translation

Since the day
I gave myself,
my fate seems all in flower.
I seem to be dreaming
beneath a fairy sky,
my soul still enraptured
by that first kiss!
What a wonderful life!
My dream was not a dream!
Oh, I am so happy!
Love spreads its wings above me!
In the garden of my heart
a new joy sings!
Everything vibrates,
everything rejoices in my triumph!

About me it is all smiles,
light and happiness!
And I tremble deliciously
at the delightful memory
of the first day of love!
What a glorious life!
Oh, how happy I am! too happy!...
And I tremble deliciously
at the delightful memory
of the first day of Love!

Your beloved.

Letting go

I had so much I was carrying with me before you were able to come into my life. Now I realize that letting go will be an ongoing process as I am with you. Though I do love how tolerant you are my foibles and flaws. I thought at one point that I just could release enough and it would be done. Now I see that we all must constantly detached from our entanglements. Had I not let go of all past romances, I could never have been present to receive your love. We would have passed through each others' lives like strangers in the night. I have to admit, I feel fortunate that I could examine my life and figure this out in time to be with you. So my love, I will promise to detach myself as much as possible from getting entangled. A love as rare as yours deserves the space and nourishment it needs to flourish. Like a flower, it must be free of choking weeds to bloom and attain its true beauty.

Your lover,
David

So sure

David,
I've never told you this before but what drew me most to you when I first met you was your air of happiness with life. You had this aura of contentment about you that was irresistible. I sensed that your life was one you loved with or without me in it. Nothing made me want you more than that. To meet someone else who got that so completely frankly took my breath away. I had waited so long for someone on the same path as me and then you just walked into my life. I learned as you did that I just needed to wake up each day and live that day with joy and abandon (with or without a lover.) Alone, I was still complete. In fact meeting you became an added bonus to an already full life. I am so grateful for the patience you had and I had as we walked our separate paths. I knew that I needed to be the man that I wanted to date before I could date him. Somehow, in your own way you came to the same conclusions. It brought our paths together eventually. Maybe that is what makes this experience so exquisite for me. It's the first time I've felt that a lover's life would continue without me, and it makes me want to share your life all the more while i can. Blessed be the day that you walked into my life.

Your Beloved.

The trees

Beloved,
I cannot tell you in words how much you mean to me. I will liken the love you give to the shade of the tree I sat beneath this morning. The shade calmed my nervous beating heart. The cool, refreshing shadows eased my tense, sweaty brow. I cannot articulate the feeling in words. I wish you too could sit beneath the shade of your love to know how relaxing and revitalizing it is. Perhaps my love is as refreshing for you. That I cannot know. What I do know is that the shade now is like an oasis amidst a barren desert. I have wandered far and long in the desert of my mind. I have seen mirages and glimpses of happiness. I know that when I finally surrendered to the emptiness that I was able to see the oasis that was me and then you and me.

Your love,
David

Music to my ears

I hear love in everything that moves upon the earth. I hear our love echoed to me in bird song, I see it reflected in the stars above. Everything in life is connected by a vast symphony of love. Sure. there are times that it grows in discord or anger, but the love is always there overwhelming these tiny moments. I look at you, David, and know that all is well because your love is there in your eyes. I feel the surge of universal love flow through me like a lightening bolt when we are together, beloved. It is beyond rapture and bliss. Such love is so rare indeed, yet all could find it if they first started the journey within. I get lost sometimes in the magnificence of our love. I forget the long hours spent alone waiting for you to come. I forget my worries for the future. Now in your arms and looking into those starry eyes is enough.

With total love and abandon
Your lover

It isn't always easy

Beloved,
It wasn't always this easy for me. I think back to times of deep despair and longing. I used to think that love was something to be found outside of me. I thought somewhere must surely be the perfect person to balance the equation of my life. I now know because of your love that this isn't the case. Love was always within me first. I thank the universe that I learned this valuable lesson and that you did too. It lends our love a power, grace, and ease that all others envy. They ask us what our secret it. Perhaps they should ask what our personal secrets are. They are one in the same. That love inside radiating outwards into each other until two are consumed by the whole of something else altogether. Perhaps that is why you smile so cheekily when questioned about our love. It is rare indeed, but I can't help to think that human kind would be much better if more shared our "secret."

Your love,
David

The totality

I sat under the stars beloved and thought of everything. I could feel my connection to the planets of our Solar system. I could feel the Universe pulsing within my veins and heaving with my lungs. I realized that as miraculous as our love is, it is a symptom of the larger well-being. Unlike our love that has its moments of connection and disconnection, this universal love is always flowing and simply always is! That is miraculous to me. I cannot express in words what that makes me feel deep inside. To know that our love is a theme in a universal symphony of love gives me such ecstatic joy. It only makes you the more beautiful and rare to me. Love is the only truth for me. I am grateful for the truth of our love each day that I wake up to it.

Your Beloved

Come what may...

I'm not going to give you some trite promise of eternal love no matter what. I don't know what matter may manifest in the future. Besides, I'm enjoying loving you so much now that I'd rather just stick with that. The joy of your love is in each moment. I don't want to miss a single moment because they are all beautiful to me. It is like an ethereal snowflake floating downwards in slow motion before my eyes wide with wonder. It's like will never be seen again. It is a mystery. To try to recreate it would be impossible. While I'm trying to recreate it and attaching to that snowflake, I would miss another more beautiful and intricate still. I love the freedom of being with you now. I love that you are as blissfully detached from what may come or be. Come what may doesn't matter. Now is here, and now I know I love you with my entire heart, mind, and soul.

Your beloved,
David

To my dearest David..

As I awoke to your serene, still sleeping, face I awoke to bliss. I cannot tell you how precious our days together have been to me. It's cliche, but money could never buy such as those days were. I can only look forward to the next day and the next day and the next day. Each day is more lovely and joyful than the last. I could spend an eternity sailing the oceans in your eyes. I could spend my life gazing at the stars reflected in their depths back at me. I sometimes drown and lose myself in your eyes. The love we share causes me to disappear into the whole that we become. When I meditate, I contemplate the sweetness and the bitterness that we both embody. I contemplate our shared humanity and divinity. You mirror both for me. I wouldn't have it any other way. You make me want to sing songs that none have heard before and bring light, joy and laughter into the world. I cannot tell you how much I love you, but I can show you a little bit every day that we're together. We may have our pasts, but it becomes inconsequential in comparison to the now. The now is so magnificent, anxieties for the future disappear. I would do nothing to sabotage this precious now with you. Let the past and future be. All I need is you, here asleep next to me.

Your Beloved.

Attaining the summit

Beloved,
I sat today and pondered the human fascination with mountain peaks and the quest to attain the heights. I found that it symbolizes are desire to be more than we are. It is a cathartic journey that transforms us from ordinary caterpillars into beautiful butterflies. I know that from time to time our love isn't easy. There is challenge and growth for both of us. So, I've come to think of the journey of loving you as ascending a mysterious peak. I don't know where I'm headed to, I just know that I'm headed there. Sometimes the path is lined with meadows and beautiful flowers. Sometimes the path is treacherous and surrounded on all sides by bottomless chasms. At times the sun shines gently on my upturned face, other times the rain comes pouring down amid flashes of lightening and deafening thunder. I'll take the stormy times and the beautiful balmy nights. Give me your sunshine and your rain. The journey and profound experience of loving you makes everything worth it. Well, I just realized. Maybe this peak is one I'll never know or discover. Maybe it's all about the journey in this case. I'll keep walking the path of loving you, content that the mysteries will remain mysteries. The more I know, the less I know. May I never attain that peak, for what would I have to look forward to then?

Your lover,
David

Quirkiness

Dear Beloved David,
I wanted to tell you today, thank you for your quirkiness and weirdness! I love that there is someone out there as strange and unconventional as me. I didn't believe such a person existed till I met you. Our conversations transport me to new heights and depths. Sometimes I feel like I'm about to take the first step on a foreign planet, and you're my personal tour guide. Life is all about expansion and adventure both of which you have provided for me in abundance. Let it never be said that we had a dull moment, and I think it never will be said! I want you to know how rare and beautiful you are to me. Inside, and out. I love the love you walk with. I love the way you accept me as me! Every time you hear a birdsong or see a whimsical cloud, think of me today!

Your beloved.

Anxiety and stress

I found myself getting sucked into feeling stressed and anxious a little bit. About what? I'm not sure. I'm so grateful for my meditation practice at this point. It feels good just to be meditating today. I love that I can take a step back, relax, and just sit. That and I love the blueberries I'm eating as I write this. I knew before I came into this life that it wouldn't always be simple or easy. What I knew though from that vantage point was that I could always get to a good feeling place from the contrast. I also knew that contrast would help me identify what I wanted. That is reassuring especially on days like today. I think some of it may be the number of irons I have in the fire at the moment. Well, that is exciting. I can choose to feel enthusiastic over what I've been up to or overwhelmed. I think I'll go with enthusiastic. Ok, well, poem time I think!

Eternity
Is in love with me
God
Flows through me.
Happiness
Comes naturally.
Again and again.

Sitting and thinking

Beloved,
I thought of you today as I sat in solitude and meditation. I thanked the Universe for all that you are and aren’t. I feel so blessed to have you in my life. Although my life was always wondrous, you have added to the wonder. I am so happy that the over flowing of love I have felt for myself and others can be shared with you. That is the beauty of love. I sat too on the paradox of the love we have. We are one yet separate. I cannot express my pleasure at our mutual acceptance of this mystery. It makes our love all the more strong and radiant. I think back to times when I felt so unloved or so unloveable and I see that I only needed to love and accept me. That is enough. I’m so happy to share my life with you now. I need only now. I will not worry about tomorrow or the day after that or the day after that. Being in your arms today is enough. Let it never be said that this love was caged or tied down. Let it fly on the breeze free as an eagle wandering above and through clouds and sun. That is the miracle of your love. It frees and simultaneously creates closeness. Thank you my love for just being you!

David

Love in the air today

As I walk below the green, verdant leaves, I feel love emanating from the trees and flowers around me. It reminds me of your love. I walk by a rushing creek and the sighing, breathing waters remind me of you sleeping next to me at night. The cool breeze that fans my face and caresses my hair recalls your hands running through it. It seems that all nature conspires to reinforce my love for you. I love up at the stars at night and their constant shining makes me think of your kind smile or a cheering word shared the previous day. Clouds and rain refresh the thirsty land as your kiss refreshes my love parched lips. The birdsong echoing through the canopy of the silent forest takes me back to when you sang quietly only to me and danced with me beneath the milky way on the mountain top. The pastel tones of the pink and blue sunrise seems to me like the blush of your cheek when I first laid eyes on you beneath the blue blue sky. Beloved, all reminds me of you. All the roads I walk lead me back to my love for you. I praise creation for the constant reminder of love, beauty, and grace. I thank my lucky star that you came into my life.

Your lover.

To my lover...

Today I pondered on love and what it means. I thought of how amazing the gift you give me is. I realize that for each of us, love is a daily choice. We wake up each day and renew our love anew. This is why my love needs no vows or limits to contain or restrict. No, love must be free to flow like a wild river. I don't know where this crazy current will lead, but I surrender fully to the experience. I guess what they say about the necessity of letting go is true. I must let go of my fears, my wishes, my hopes, the need to control and all that limits in order to merge with the infinity that is us. It is paradoxical and at times scary, but at least I have you to share the adventure with me. I am so grateful for that. The ability to be real and open and naked with someone is a gift that I never before understood. I thought my single life was an adventure and free, but you have taught me what freedom really is. The surrender to your love has helped me to free myself from the tangles of fears and doubts that have followed me all my life like a suitcase of boulders. I love you more than words can say lover.

David

Letter from my lover...

Dear beloved David,
I feel at one with you yet am separate. That is the paradox of our love. You are the most beautiful soul i have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I feel alive and electrified by your presence and passion. The touch of your fingers on mine transports me to bliss and happiness. I love that you are an enigma to me still and that you allow me to be an enigma to you. I love that our love is so freely given and not dependent on conditions or obligations. You happiness and joy move me to even greater happiness and joy. I feel myself expand exponentially from having you in my life. My aloneness is so much more sweet for the togetherness we share. I pledge to always be alone first and foremost and accord you the same. The free choice to be with you makes the choosing all the sweeter to me. I have wandered already among the stars and the galaxies, but you have shown me new and fascinating vistas. I hope to always do the same for you. This letter is sent with love and the anticipation of our coming together again soon. I would drown you in a flood of kisses and enfold you in my embrace.

With love,
Your beloved.

Love Letter to my Lover...

Dear Beloved,
I cannot express my love with words to you. They fall short of the mark. I might as well try to explain the colors of a sunset to a man who has never known sight. I know that our love is a profound and deep mystery. It runs through the deepest chasms of the oceans and ascends higher than the celestial spheres above us dancing across the sky. I viscerally feel that it is so in my belly, my feet, my heart, my hands, and my soul. I thank you with the deepest gratitude for your love. It is an infinite gift. I offer my whole heart, body, and soul in return. This is the truest communion I've ever experienced. Each time in your arms is like a revelation from God to me. Your scent, your touch, your lips, set me afire. Your kind voice and beautiful words move my soul to tears. Thank you lover. Thank you for just being who you are to me in this moment. That is enough. It is a priceless gift.

Yours,
David