Music to my ears

I hear love in everything that moves upon the earth. I hear our love echoed to me in bird song, I see it reflected in the stars above. Everything in life is connected by a vast symphony of love. Sure. there are times that it grows in discord or anger, but the love is always there overwhelming these tiny moments. I look at you, David, and know that all is well because your love is there in your eyes. I feel the surge of universal love flow through me like a lightening bolt when we are together, beloved. It is beyond rapture and bliss. Such love is so rare indeed, yet all could find it if they first started the journey within. I get lost sometimes in the magnificence of our love. I forget the long hours spent alone waiting for you to come. I forget my worries for the future. Now in your arms and looking into those starry eyes is enough.

With total love and abandon
Your lover

It isn't always easy

Beloved,
It wasn't always this easy for me. I think back to times of deep despair and longing. I used to think that love was something to be found outside of me. I thought somewhere must surely be the perfect person to balance the equation of my life. I now know because of your love that this isn't the case. Love was always within me first. I thank the universe that I learned this valuable lesson and that you did too. It lends our love a power, grace, and ease that all others envy. They ask us what our secret it. Perhaps they should ask what our personal secrets are. They are one in the same. That love inside radiating outwards into each other until two are consumed by the whole of something else altogether. Perhaps that is why you smile so cheekily when questioned about our love. It is rare indeed, but I can't help to think that human kind would be much better if more shared our "secret."

Your love,
David

The totality

I sat under the stars beloved and thought of everything. I could feel my connection to the planets of our Solar system. I could feel the Universe pulsing within my veins and heaving with my lungs. I realized that as miraculous as our love is, it is a symptom of the larger well-being. Unlike our love that has its moments of connection and disconnection, this universal love is always flowing and simply always is! That is miraculous to me. I cannot express in words what that makes me feel deep inside. To know that our love is a theme in a universal symphony of love gives me such ecstatic joy. It only makes you the more beautiful and rare to me. Love is the only truth for me. I am grateful for the truth of our love each day that I wake up to it.

Your Beloved

Come what may...

I'm not going to give you some trite promise of eternal love no matter what. I don't know what matter may manifest in the future. Besides, I'm enjoying loving you so much now that I'd rather just stick with that. The joy of your love is in each moment. I don't want to miss a single moment because they are all beautiful to me. It is like an ethereal snowflake floating downwards in slow motion before my eyes wide with wonder. It's like will never be seen again. It is a mystery. To try to recreate it would be impossible. While I'm trying to recreate it and attaching to that snowflake, I would miss another more beautiful and intricate still. I love the freedom of being with you now. I love that you are as blissfully detached from what may come or be. Come what may doesn't matter. Now is here, and now I know I love you with my entire heart, mind, and soul.

Your beloved,
David

To my dearest David..

As I awoke to your serene, still sleeping, face I awoke to bliss. I cannot tell you how precious our days together have been to me. It's cliche, but money could never buy such as those days were. I can only look forward to the next day and the next day and the next day. Each day is more lovely and joyful than the last. I could spend an eternity sailing the oceans in your eyes. I could spend my life gazing at the stars reflected in their depths back at me. I sometimes drown and lose myself in your eyes. The love we share causes me to disappear into the whole that we become. When I meditate, I contemplate the sweetness and the bitterness that we both embody. I contemplate our shared humanity and divinity. You mirror both for me. I wouldn't have it any other way. You make me want to sing songs that none have heard before and bring light, joy and laughter into the world. I cannot tell you how much I love you, but I can show you a little bit every day that we're together. We may have our pasts, but it becomes inconsequential in comparison to the now. The now is so magnificent, anxieties for the future disappear. I would do nothing to sabotage this precious now with you. Let the past and future be. All I need is you, here asleep next to me.

Your Beloved.

Attaining the summit

Beloved,
I sat today and pondered the human fascination with mountain peaks and the quest to attain the heights. I found that it symbolizes are desire to be more than we are. It is a cathartic journey that transforms us from ordinary caterpillars into beautiful butterflies. I know that from time to time our love isn't easy. There is challenge and growth for both of us. So, I've come to think of the journey of loving you as ascending a mysterious peak. I don't know where I'm headed to, I just know that I'm headed there. Sometimes the path is lined with meadows and beautiful flowers. Sometimes the path is treacherous and surrounded on all sides by bottomless chasms. At times the sun shines gently on my upturned face, other times the rain comes pouring down amid flashes of lightening and deafening thunder. I'll take the stormy times and the beautiful balmy nights. Give me your sunshine and your rain. The journey and profound experience of loving you makes everything worth it. Well, I just realized. Maybe this peak is one I'll never know or discover. Maybe it's all about the journey in this case. I'll keep walking the path of loving you, content that the mysteries will remain mysteries. The more I know, the less I know. May I never attain that peak, for what would I have to look forward to then?

Your lover,
David

Quirkiness

Dear Beloved David,
I wanted to tell you today, thank you for your quirkiness and weirdness! I love that there is someone out there as strange and unconventional as me. I didn't believe such a person existed till I met you. Our conversations transport me to new heights and depths. Sometimes I feel like I'm about to take the first step on a foreign planet, and you're my personal tour guide. Life is all about expansion and adventure both of which you have provided for me in abundance. Let it never be said that we had a dull moment, and I think it never will be said! I want you to know how rare and beautiful you are to me. Inside, and out. I love the love you walk with. I love the way you accept me as me! Every time you hear a birdsong or see a whimsical cloud, think of me today!

Your beloved.

Anxiety and stress

I found myself getting sucked into feeling stressed and anxious a little bit. About what? I'm not sure. I'm so grateful for my meditation practice at this point. It feels good just to be meditating today. I love that I can take a step back, relax, and just sit. That and I love the blueberries I'm eating as I write this. I knew before I came into this life that it wouldn't always be simple or easy. What I knew though from that vantage point was that I could always get to a good feeling place from the contrast. I also knew that contrast would help me identify what I wanted. That is reassuring especially on days like today. I think some of it may be the number of irons I have in the fire at the moment. Well, that is exciting. I can choose to feel enthusiastic over what I've been up to or overwhelmed. I think I'll go with enthusiastic. Ok, well, poem time I think!

Eternity
Is in love with me
God
Flows through me.
Happiness
Comes naturally.
Again and again.

Sitting and thinking

Beloved,
I thought of you today as I sat in solitude and meditation. I thanked the Universe for all that you are and aren’t. I feel so blessed to have you in my life. Although my life was always wondrous, you have added to the wonder. I am so happy that the over flowing of love I have felt for myself and others can be shared with you. That is the beauty of love. I sat too on the paradox of the love we have. We are one yet separate. I cannot express my pleasure at our mutual acceptance of this mystery. It makes our love all the more strong and radiant. I think back to times when I felt so unloved or so unloveable and I see that I only needed to love and accept me. That is enough. I’m so happy to share my life with you now. I need only now. I will not worry about tomorrow or the day after that or the day after that. Being in your arms today is enough. Let it never be said that this love was caged or tied down. Let it fly on the breeze free as an eagle wandering above and through clouds and sun. That is the miracle of your love. It frees and simultaneously creates closeness. Thank you my love for just being you!

David

Love in the air today

As I walk below the green, verdant leaves, I feel love emanating from the trees and flowers around me. It reminds me of your love. I walk by a rushing creek and the sighing, breathing waters remind me of you sleeping next to me at night. The cool breeze that fans my face and caresses my hair recalls your hands running through it. It seems that all nature conspires to reinforce my love for you. I love up at the stars at night and their constant shining makes me think of your kind smile or a cheering word shared the previous day. Clouds and rain refresh the thirsty land as your kiss refreshes my love parched lips. The birdsong echoing through the canopy of the silent forest takes me back to when you sang quietly only to me and danced with me beneath the milky way on the mountain top. The pastel tones of the pink and blue sunrise seems to me like the blush of your cheek when I first laid eyes on you beneath the blue blue sky. Beloved, all reminds me of you. All the roads I walk lead me back to my love for you. I praise creation for the constant reminder of love, beauty, and grace. I thank my lucky star that you came into my life.

Your lover.

To my lover...

Today I pondered on love and what it means. I thought of how amazing the gift you give me is. I realize that for each of us, love is a daily choice. We wake up each day and renew our love anew. This is why my love needs no vows or limits to contain or restrict. No, love must be free to flow like a wild river. I don't know where this crazy current will lead, but I surrender fully to the experience. I guess what they say about the necessity of letting go is true. I must let go of my fears, my wishes, my hopes, the need to control and all that limits in order to merge with the infinity that is us. It is paradoxical and at times scary, but at least I have you to share the adventure with me. I am so grateful for that. The ability to be real and open and naked with someone is a gift that I never before understood. I thought my single life was an adventure and free, but you have taught me what freedom really is. The surrender to your love has helped me to free myself from the tangles of fears and doubts that have followed me all my life like a suitcase of boulders. I love you more than words can say lover.

David

Letter from my lover...

Dear beloved David,
I feel at one with you yet am separate. That is the paradox of our love. You are the most beautiful soul i have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I feel alive and electrified by your presence and passion. The touch of your fingers on mine transports me to bliss and happiness. I love that you are an enigma to me still and that you allow me to be an enigma to you. I love that our love is so freely given and not dependent on conditions or obligations. You happiness and joy move me to even greater happiness and joy. I feel myself expand exponentially from having you in my life. My aloneness is so much more sweet for the togetherness we share. I pledge to always be alone first and foremost and accord you the same. The free choice to be with you makes the choosing all the sweeter to me. I have wandered already among the stars and the galaxies, but you have shown me new and fascinating vistas. I hope to always do the same for you. This letter is sent with love and the anticipation of our coming together again soon. I would drown you in a flood of kisses and enfold you in my embrace.

With love,
Your beloved.

Love Letter to my Lover...

Dear Beloved,
I cannot express my love with words to you. They fall short of the mark. I might as well try to explain the colors of a sunset to a man who has never known sight. I know that our love is a profound and deep mystery. It runs through the deepest chasms of the oceans and ascends higher than the celestial spheres above us dancing across the sky. I viscerally feel that it is so in my belly, my feet, my heart, my hands, and my soul. I thank you with the deepest gratitude for your love. It is an infinite gift. I offer my whole heart, body, and soul in return. This is the truest communion I've ever experienced. Each time in your arms is like a revelation from God to me. Your scent, your touch, your lips, set me afire. Your kind voice and beautiful words move my soul to tears. Thank you lover. Thank you for just being who you are to me in this moment. That is enough. It is a priceless gift.

Yours,
David